...the end of our first journey through primary school
...oh i know we have two more bambinos to encourage & guide through p.s
...& i know that we have moved 15,000 miles away from home & are pretty darn good at dealing with change
...& i know that she is *more than* ready
...& i know we all did it
...but somehow when *your* first baby reaches this point... it just all feels a little...well big
...i don't feel that different to how i did when we took ella to school on her very first day
...her smile huge...her excitement uncontainable-yep she was the one who desperately wanted to go!
...it was a day, on the other side of the world, not unlike today...
...the sun was shinning...the sky a heavenly blue...
...yes i was
...but it was pretty much the same...we were all there...
...i don't love her any more than i did that day...but i do love her differently
...& differently feels good
...there's more inside of her to love
...what makes ella ella is lovely
...& i guess i love the bits that we didn't make as much as the bits that we did...
..i now also love the *bits that she has made*
...the gorgeous warm wonderful person that she has become
...so in anticipation of a life involving high school...shorter skirts...attitude & bus travel...
...& you know...all that high school involves one in...
...i am loving sitting
...& i have
...but on days like today *she assured me* that some promises were made to be broken...
